Monday, December 12, 2005

it hurts....

somehow, it was unexpected. like how a breeze whispers it's sorrow tru the rays of twilight. the words gracefully slice. i wipe away the blood n act like it's nothing. i tot i was strong but i m not. not as tough as i naively expected. learning that no one, i mean literally, no one ever cares bout me on earth, when i need it.

who the heck on earth is interested in wat i did ; had ; felt, wat i've done; had; felt, wat m i doing ; having ; feeling n wat'll i do ; have ; feel. no. n who the heck on earth is goin to let me know wat he did ; had ; felt, wat he've done; had; felt, wat is he doing; having ; feeling n wat'll he do; have ; feel.. no, not even one.

i always tot that sharing personal experience and opinions and interest is the way to have fellowship n friendship. n it's wrong. wat links u n others r only values. if u've got some values to someone, yup, u'll be doin him favors n that's it. he doesn't need to know whether u were or u r a murderer or rapist, or u r having some kinda brain cancer, or perhaps u r retarded.....the vey bond between both of u, is the barely connected values of urs. how u could do the right thing at the right time, FOR him. else, u r MEANINGLESS. n u'll be left in the corner to be forgotten.

so, in order to have a lot of frens, u have to skill urself up, to meet the needs of various people, to satisfy the diverse requirement of those who u call frens. someday, when u turn around, u'll notice that, u r juz an unsignificant stepping stone of so many people, on the paths of them to their destinations. n yup, ur very own destiny is to be the stepping stone of them. vice versa, u'll have ur very own stepping stones. if u r humane enough, try to figure who r them, n treat them better. of coz, u can juz forget about them, n never give a damn to them.

it hurts.....to know the truth......of the fallen world.......

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

'who the heck on earth is interested in wat i did ; had ; felt, wat i've done; had; felt, wat m i doing ; having ; feeling n wat'll i do ; have ; feel. no. n who the heck on earth is goin to let me know wat he did ; had ; felt, wat he've done; had; felt, wat is he doing; having ; feeling n wat'll he do; have ; feel.. no, not even one.'

OIIII!!!! wat is this!!! u don tel.. how v noe.. when u r down.. u sounds scary!!! who dare to talk to u like dat??
u changed afta genting.. totally diff person i noe in genting.. u used to be cheerfull!!! n talk lotsa craps.. now.. serious talk only...
i feel soo leftout !! everyone is like not talking to mee... holiday is freaking boring for me NOW!!! 2 months of holiday is like 4 months of holiday..
when was the last time all of us (jeff, emun, soursand n alison) actually talk together?? its like years ago...

specialhuman said...

ermm....i m still as jovial as always. wat i type here r some of my opinions deep down in my unconciousness. sometimes they sneak out n overpower me.

no worries. i'm still the person u know.

n we'll have chance to talk together again.

megdalyn said...

like when?? next next year?? hhahaha.. wateva laa.. human changes.. even those who are close to me!!!!

ImGodsLove said...

*Sigh*This what we really call LIFE.Only Values that counts in others ppl mind.Many of us,even if not both us,but there are still a lot out there that only make friends with you,or make use of you and that's what they call "friend".But somehow,don't worry,you are lucky to know me,for at least,I'll be the one that listen to your problems,I'll be the one for you to have a shoulder to lean on,and for sure,I'm still the person u know.Don't worry!!~Life isn't a bed of roses,just that when it comes,take it with open heart,deal with it,and then move on with our life!!~So don't worry,everything will be alright,it will be another brand new,refreshing day again!!~Cheer up dude!~

specialhuman said...

weifu

thanx man. at least ur words warm my heart.

we should hang out together when i m back to penang~ :) kinda miss u~ hahaha~

leong said...

hey, i don know wt should i say to u! because always is u gv me advise n gv me support! pls gv me back my kelvin, ok? i know no matter how no matter what u will handle all of it right? i always believe u!

specialhuman said...

leong

thanx man.

u know. sometimes i juz cant help it but feel so helpless.

haih.

see u back in penang~

leong said...

This is not the thing that u should say! yes u can be sad.. but after that must cheer up again rite? mayb i will call u at a later time!

ImGodsLove said...

Imgodslove said:

Yeah,leong is right!~U can be sad but,u must cheer up later on,and be the one u are!~Everyone can be down,sad,unhappy,but after that,we must learn to get back up and walk again!~

Penang Podcast said...

whatever past is past..we shall look at future.. anyway, you have a nice blog and hope you can keep it up... I would like to inform you that I have put your blog link in my blogger page.. hope you don't mind...

Anonymous said...

I uNdErStAnD...

Yik Wen said...

I know what to do - just use them back! Problem solved, haha!

Kidding :)

In this world, there is both good and bad people, and every one of us will eventually meet them, sooner or later in our lives. I suppose crossing paths with some of them is inevitable. Just take them in your stride and learn to put your trust in the right people and identifying the real friends in your life.

The world is not "fallen", it's just "stumbling" from the weight of bad people :) and it's being held up by the good people :).

specialhuman said...

leong n imgoslove,

thanx guys for ur concern. everything is alright. miss u heaps~!

penang podcast,
thanx for dropping by~! it's fine to have my links in ur blog~! ;)

yik wen,

:D it's not that i don wanna use them back but they've got nothing for me to use~! haha, joking~

well, thanx for ur opinions. but for me, imho, i don actually believe that there's a clear cut between evil n good. at times, one might be good to someone but mean to others. it's so hard to be perfectly pure in this world. n i dare not call myself a good one. i know i m not.

anyway, u r right. we have to choose our frens with wisdom. u have to know who r genuine n who r fake. this, we'll have to learn from our own experience.

n perhaps the world's stumbled by the contaminated soul of mankind.