Friday, August 05, 2005

thoughts

Freudian Inventory Results
Oral (66%) you appear to be overly passive and dependent, wanting things to be given to you instead of working for them.
Anal (50%) you appear to have a good balance of self control and spontaneity, order and chaos, variety and selectivity.
Phallic (40%) you appear to have a good balance of sexual awareness and sexual composure.
Latency (60%) you appear to have a good balance of abstract knowledge seeking and practicality, dealing with real world responsibilities while still cultivating your abstract and creative faculties and interests.
Genital (56%) you appear to be somewhere between a progressive/openminded and regressive/closeminded outlook on life.
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I have seen this test somewhere in someone's blog, took it, and this is the result i got. it says i m quite dependent....well, maybe. i donno. anyway, this theory of Freudian is weird and the founder of this theory is weirder. hehe, don give a damn.

I have been busying for one whole week. next saturday will be exam for my dancing test. crap. i rather it's an individual dance....this group dance thing really bothered me a lot and wasted my time pratising it. i should have something more important to do~! becoz of the 2 credit hours to pass this first year of my pre-U studies i have to spend time to practise something foolish...this is rediculous.

tomoro night is the music festival in Setapak Gospel Centre, i'll be singing a few songs. Hope i wont screw up anything. please, i m singing for the sake of glorifying Jesus Christ, not showing off.

and i'll rush to Jian's house tomoro night for kinda a farewell party. He'll be flying overseas to study in the United States. alright, another close fren of mine goin overseas. whenever it comes to "studying abroad", i have some sort of very weird feeling, especially when it happens on a close fren of mine. i donno wat should i call that, but i just don feel nice. of coz, genuinely, i am happy for them to have the oppoturnity to experience the life abroad. but there's a kind of feeling that bothers me, well, perhaps "self-pity" is the right word. Since i was young i have been wondering what's the feeling of flying, i've dreamt endless time that i flew in the sky, that kind of freedom. and when i heard frens talking about their vacation, i hoped that i could have experience like theirs too. they visited every country each year with their families and relatives. To them taking a flight was no longer exciting. and i felt so bad, i knew i should be happy for them to have such a great experience, but it couldn't be helped that i'll get so emotional. i come from a not-too-poor family and for sure there'll be no extra expenses for the whole family to visit overseas. of coz i am grateful that at least my parents tried their best to bring me travelling around when i was a kid. they gave me watever they could. but deep in my heart i really wanna see the world. to study overseas is one of the way, and i got rejected from all my scholarships (ok, i admit i did not have a very good results, just slightly better than average) and sometimes i'll think that wat i did was just in vain. ok, i'll stop nagging about it. and wat i tried to say for all the while is that: i wanna get the hell out of here~!

back to reality. last night i was playing guitar before i slept, and this morning i woke up with guitar in my arms~! haha, that was funny. i was too tired. and i wonder will she get pregnant and give birth to some lil guitars. hahahahah

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