Monday, December 26, 2016

Unapologetic

My blogging cadence has been reduced to twice a year. Not entirely sure if that is a good thing or bad thing? Anyone still reading this (this....this.....this....*echo*)?

I had a post earlier this year, iterating on things that I have done/achieved in year 2015. I figure I would be writing about 2016 as well, in a different manner.

2016 has been a rocky yet fruitful year as well. A lot of things have happened and a lot of realization. If I were to use an adjective to describe my 2016, it would be 'unapologetic'.

Not a very common word to describe a year, huh?

2016 is year that I realize that I have carried too heavy of a baggage for the past 25 years (Well I started to have memories of things starting at an age of 3). I did not do too many things that I would want to because of various reasons but mostly because I was in fear. I was in fear that if I were to do this, people would not like it and people would judge. Simply put, I have been a people-pleaser and that stopped me from doing a lot of things.

When I stop being a people pleaser, I realize that I achieve a great many things.
How about getting the first place in a half-Ironman race?

I used to be so afraid of being called vain that I did not pay attention to how I look and how my body look and I don't give a rat ass now. I have the rights to decide how I should look.

There are many more examples but I am not gonna go through all of them. Just gonna keep this post short and sweet.

2016 is a great year. It's a year of self-discovery, self-actualization and self-improvement.

I know it sounded selfish but I am unapologetic. 

Sunday, January 03, 2016

Retrospect

Another year whizzed away like a breeze and a new year made a silence but elegant entrance.

Like any other year, I had my moments of laughter, tears, lessons, mistakes, achievements and changes. I went to places, met people and made things happened.

In retrospect, things went better than I thought. In a way, I managed to strike off all my new year resolutions of 2015. Here are the highlights.

I traveled to places


I hiked a mountain in a foreign land


I got my diving license


I participated in a triathlon for the very first time (and accidentally won a prize! :P) 

I bid farewell to National Instruments which I have worked for 4 years and 11 months.


I did a PB for half marathon



I have gained new friends and lost some old ones. I regretted some mistakes that cost me some friendship. I have learnt and grown. I have grasped some understanding about myself and about others that I have not known before. I have stumbled and fallen and I picked myself up again. I have taken risks and it paid off. I have seen aspects and facets of life that I have never experienced before. I have become more conscious and mindful about things, people and surroundings.

All in all, two thousand fifteen was a good year and I wish the better for two thousand sixteen.

Saturday, July 18, 2015

Ruminate

I realized how much I have changed, when I read posts that I wrote 10 years ago.

Time does best of what it is doing to everybody to me - it pushes me to change, to adapt, to learn and to transform.

Life took away things that I thought would last for a longer time in minutes and taught me a lesson of never taking things for granted.

Questions arise. Do I swim with the flow of the current of life or I push against it? Do I walk the path that most people have taken or I go for the road not taken? Do I still care about what people think of me? What is the anchor of my life? Who can I look up to and tell myself - hey, this is the kind of person that I want to be in 10 years time?

Or, who cares? Just live it and focus on the present? Stop pondering and just do it? Live in the moment? After all, what's the worst it can be?

It's my 28th year of existence and I think I owe myself an explanation.

Sunday, February 08, 2015

Revived

This is a long overdue post. After all, I have left this blog un-updated for a year. Perhaps, the instant gratification of getting likes and comments on a Facebook post replaced a long write-up that felt like no one would read. Perhaps, life's packed with so many things that updating blog is de-prioritised. Anyway, here are some snippets of my trip to Myanmar in November 2014. A mysterious nation with some out of the world beauty.

A bro. A friend. A colleague. A travel mate.

Bagan

A little monk crossing U-bein Bridge

I guess, I am updating this blog for myself. If you still read my blog, please leave a comment here. I might be surprised :)

Tuesday, April 01, 2014

Mortal

Hospital is a depressing place. Perhaps it is the seemingly endless corridor; or the constant beeping of life monitoring equipments. It might also be the eerily well-lit intensive care units; or how the smell of antiseptic lingering in the air.

And I hate how it reminds us that we are but mortal beings. I hate how helpless and useless I am when the life of someone I care so much about is on the thin ice. I hate how human beings have the technology to destroy the whole world yet do not have a faintest idea on how to fix our own injured brain.

And I pray. With the kind of conviction that miracles will happen. That's the best I can do.

Fragile. We are indeed.